I’m Listening…
This weird and wonderful thing has been happening this week for me. It's weird because I've had these confusing feelings at times and it's wonderful because I've quickly figured out why the confusing feelings! I probably make no sense at all right now right?! lol
You see, I'm a little excited because years gone by I would have felt this way and it would have taken me months and months to figure out why "things" were happening but this week, I figured it out relatively quickly and how did I do that you ask?
I'm listening...as simple as that, listening! Not with my ears but with everything, my body, my mind, my gut, my vision, my words…I’m listening with everything!
The new thing is that I am back on Social Media to some degree for "work" and it's not sitting well with me…at all.
The back story is that about two or so weeks ago I opened a YouTube channel to post shorts. YouTube shorts are 15 to 30 second video on a topic. The video has an image, music and words on the topic you've chosen. Generally the music used is well known music so it grabs the viewers attention. I began this channel after watching a video on how to make shorts that my husband sent to me and start a YouTube channel to post them on to potentially make a side income.
Click here if you want to see what a short looks like.
Now, If you read or listened to last weeks Blog/VlogCast you would understand why I did this. If you didn't click here to check it out because as promised in that episode…I choose not to keep voicing (re-writing) it!
So, to combat my deep desire not to be on social media and to try to make myself feel better about giving this a go I decided to focus on something I really care about and that's people. So, in this saturated "social media" world of so much crap and misinformation I decided to create something light that might provide some comfort or bring some light to whoever might end up seeing these shorts in between the other trillion of things they consume on a screen.
My shorts are on Abundance, Affirmations, Manifestations, Meditation, & Never Giving Up...as you can tell by the topics...this is all coming from a good place, a place of service but...within me it still doesn't feel right.
YouTube Channel…
So I went back to the drawing board, "if I'm going to be on social media let me at least produce something that aligns with more and helps me be true to myself" and I came up with Daily Guardian Angel and Ascended Masters Card Readings. Post a card on a daily basis on TikTok (first time on this platform!) but not just any card, I actually go through the motions of a reading to get the card I will post so it's not just a random card I film to post.
TikTok Account…
So as you can now tell, I'm looking at ways to make myself feel better because I'm doing something (being on social media) that I didn't want to do. Why am I so adamant that I didn't want to do it? Because I want to live in the present moment WITH the people I love, and that includes me. When alone I want to call a friend, read a book, go for a walk, meditate, exercise etc and not default to scrolling through a social media feed. When you take away the "problem" you can't do it! So if there is no social media then there is no feed to scroll through. I feel like I blinked and I am here, married with an 18 year old son and a 15 year old daughter...time zooms by and, I want to be present. People all around me are on their devices 24/07...I don't want that for me, I REALLY don’t :(
Yes, I found myself phone in hand so many times these last few weeks since getting back on social media..either creating the content, posting it or seeing the reach...I DON'T LIKE THAT! I feel it's time I could have been being present with my family or myself.
So why don't I just go back to how things were two or so weeks ago and bloody close the thing?! Easily fixed right?! Wellll, again, read last weeks blog or listen/watch the VlogCast and you'll understand really clearly why I am trying this…
I will retire in three years (maximum) time. I'll have my home fully paid when I do it and money will be flowing in so abundantly that I will have bought a house for my children and will be taking two holidays a year with the family. On top of this I will be helping complete strangers in a way that will change their lives forever for the better. I don't need to know how this will all be happening by the middle of 2026, all I need to know is that it will. And that right there is the reason that I am sitting in an uncomfortable space, I need and want to do it for my greater good. Sometimes growth doesn't feel the best when it's happening and if we resist it we stop the growth from taking place. No, I would never do something that is immoral or hurt myself or others to "get something" or "get somewhere", not at ALL! This, being on social media isn't any of that, these confusing feelings of doing something I don't particularly agree with or enjoy for the purpose of growth have been noted and I have put in place strict guidelines for myself in order not to become a screen zombie…seriously, if that happened it would be the end of me…
So for now I'll continue to serve (as I like to put it) via shorts on YouTube and Card Readings on TikTok. I'll do that until the middle of 2026 when I retire and the rest as they say is...HERstory (aka history).
With Kindness,
